A New Day

I am so thankful that God gives us a new day everyday!!  I failed miserably yesterday at being a mother.  The girls are testing the waters right now.  I think it must be because their birthday is coming.

  They have been saying they want to go to Chuc*kee Chee*se.  It is an hour away, but we said they could each take a friend and we would go.  All of a sudden, they think they can just decide they want a spend the night party and have one.  They are NOT ready for a spend the night party.  I asked what they wanted to do at their party.  Haylee said they just want to play babies.  I reminded them they don't do as well with "free play" for long periods of time.  My husband and I agree they aren't having a spend the night party.  Also, when they first started talking about what they wanted to do for their birthday, I told them not to mention the party to any of their friends because we hadn't made plans for anything.  Well, what does Hannah do the next day?  Tell one of her friends that we are going to the place for their birthday.  Guess what?  Now her one friend is going to be the friend she invites because she already invited that person and we aren't going to hurt feelings.  She probably would have invited her anyway, but we are trying to make a point. 

Anyway, I really blew it yesterday.  Hannah has this way of deciding when she is done with school.  At that point, she doesn't complete anything well.  She has to redo and redo.  I have talked and talked with her about this.  I have sent her to jump on the trampoline, ride her bike, run around outside for awhile, or whatever I can think of to let her brain rest.  Well, all we accomplish is she gets really angry at me.  Yesterday, she didn't go outside, she just got angry at me.  She got mad because she couldn't take the computer to the soccer field to finish her paper.  (It is a desktop, by the way.)  She was livid at ME.  Well, I had had enough.  I really lost my temper and spoke truth to her!!  I guess the truth hurts sometimes.

  I don't like it when I lose my temper with her because I truly believe her goal in life right now is to please me so I won't send her back.  I would never send her back.  I reminded after the "event" was over that I love her bunches.  I told her that nothing would ever change that.  I told her that I don't like her choices, but I love her.  We talk about choices quite often around here.  When they talk about their birth parents, we talk about the bad choices they made. 

I got upset with Haylee later over a stupid thing, her socks.  Now why did I pick that battle?  Stupid, huh?  Well, she had on two pair of socks.  She told me she didn't realize she had on two.  What???  I told her to take one pair off, she was changing at swim team, because she was having to work really hard to get her shoes on with two pair.  On the way to the soccer field, she said something about having on two pair of socks.  Ugh!!  Did she just choose to disobey?  I was so frustrated. 

I must have forgotten yesterday that I am the adult, not a ten year old.  I need to act better than they do to set an example. 

Thanks goodness for a new day!!  I am trying to stay calm and peaceful this morning.  However, it is always difficult when one little girls brings me a school book and tells me it is wrong or it can't be done.  Ugh!!