Happy Easter!!

What a glorious day!! I hope everyone has a blessed Easter!!

We had a long day yesterday. We were all tired emotionally and physically. It has been a very long 4 days. We took the girls back to the foster family last night. We had a very good dinner with them. The mother and I talked about everything!! I told her everything we have encountered with the controlling daughter. We have the same rules at our house the foster mother has. She broke every one of them while here for four days. We caught her most of the time or she would tell us seeing what our reaction would be. One rule we didn't know about was chewing gum. She isn't allowed to chew gum at her foster home because she doesn't dispose of it properly. Well, that explains why she wanted gum in her mouth ALL the time. She is very sweet, but has to be watched constantly. I don't believe anyone can truly understand what this is like unless they actually live it. I thought I did, but I didn't understand the total magnitude of it. I was able to sleep well last night because I didn't have to worry about what they were doing or if they were okay.

I have friends that say they understand, but if you haven't fostered or adopted, I don't believe you can. It is very mentally and physically exhausting. It just can't be put into words.

I love these girls as my own already. It was hard to leave them last night. One cried and it wasn't the one I expected. Maybe she was trying to control, who knows. I think it was genuine because her chin started quivering and then she started crying. This is so confusing for these girls!! We kept reassuring them that they are coming back FOREVER Tuesday.

I need to take pictures for Easter today, but we are missing two people. I know that sounds strange, but it is weird. I feel like it isn't right. I will take pictures and know that they were part of our family, just not here today.

We went shopping at Target yesterday. It was a lot of fun. Three silly little girls in the dressing room giggling and playing as they tried on many clothes. They have lots of clothes, but many are too small. They also needed swimsuits. It looks like we are going to have three sizes. Girls XS, S and M. Sometimes two XS and a S. It was a lot of fun, but very expensive!! They all want to match with everything!! I wonder how long that will last? My boys were so good! They sat outside the dressing room and waited. The girls would show them their clothes and they would roll their eyes and ask how many more items? It was a good day overall.

Eventhough it has been a hard few days, I wouldn't change it for the world!!! I can't imagine life without them anymore!! It is definately quieter!!

I am sorry I rambled on and on, but this is my journal of our story. It also helps me to evaluate how things are going.