Our adoption is final. We are living life now. I am tired, so tired. We had a swim meet this weekend. Two long days an hour away. The girls are tired, we are all tired. Eventhough they are doing well and have come so far, going to a new place and environment brings insecurity. Therefore, I struggle because they revert back to being very dependant and asking a ton of questions. My husband reminded me that if they were five, I would think it is cute. I struggle because they want to have the freedom of Morgan, but don't act her age. I can't punish Morgan because they are able to go on their own.
I am struggling with what to post on my blog now that the girls identity has been shown. Local people read this and I would hate to change their opinion of my girls. They are really great kids! We are just working through many insecurities and changes. We are trying to weed out the old not so good things and bring in the new. One would have something she just had to tell me everytime I was talking with anyone other than her this weekend. It drove me nuts. I would tell her to wait. When I would ask her what she needed, she didn't remember. I think she is nosy. Probably not, just insecure.
I need to figure out how to link to another blog. I have tried before and didn't succeed. Another blogger posted a listing of things for people to know about an adoptive mom for the first year. We have emotions, problems, anxieties that can't be expressed in words. It said it so well. Can someone tell me how to link?
So, back to my title, when I am discouraged I remind myself, or God reminds me through other people, that God is enough. He can heal the hurts of ALL of my children. They have all let down this week and a lot of fighting has been going on. I think Hannah is dealing with some deep anger. I knew this would happen after we finalized. I figured she was keeping it in. Morgan is struggling this week. I am struggling this week. God is what will get us through, we just have to keep our eyes focused on Him!
I too read that post about what an adoptive mom needs the first year.Oh boy, if only. LOL That would have made my life so much easier, back two years ago AND now if we count the first year after finalization. HAHA I wouldn't be picky. But in all seriousness, it was a wonderful post and made me think that if I know about someone else adopting I should step up and be that help mate for them.
ReplyDeleteTo link: First, go to the post you want to link to and copy the http: address (whatever it is really called) Then, highlight the words you want as your "link words" in your post, then click on the little link button in the menu bar and paste the address. Done. :)
Your family is beautiful! It is so nice to see the new pictures. I wish you the best in this time of final transition, now that the girls know they have a forever family!
ReplyDeleteOh Jenny, how I wish I had these wonderful words of wisdom for you! I cannot not even imagine all the emotions & everything that you have been going through, but what I can do is to continue to pray for you. I admire you so much and have so much faith in you & Elliott. As an outsider, I see how God has been molding your family and it's beautiful! You are doing a great job!!! Love you!
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